...Life as fiance @ May 2011...

After a week's hectic working days...it is now a lovely Saturday or to me, it is a boring Saturday,doing things that's not so my cuppa tea
a review on what I did...nothing much for the week except for catching up with my lovely bunch of colleagues cum buddies

After a relaxation on Wednesday, out of the blue while waiting for my bunch of kakis to be done with work, there I went to Times Bookstore @ Capital Square where they were having 50% ++ moving out sales,price are even negotiable. great right? =)
I went through a few shelves and apparently,I did not buy any story books to read,reason being I have Module 6&7's pass year questions,study guide and text books to read. Hence, I was into something which I am more passionate about - Cookbook!
haha! yes, I do not cook, but I will soon =p
Something is definately different when you are a person's fiance,isn't it? I wish I can cook his favourite food to him and make his favourite drinks~ Yes darling,if you are reading this, I might not be able to cook for you,where you are the one cooking all the time, but, I will make your favourite food, through the cookbook =pp and to my mum, if she ever read this, just want to tell her, do not worry about me, I can cook and can even cook for her =))) if she does not mind....

I bought a few cookbooks at only RM83! The best bargain I have ever had. I bought his favourite finger food's cook book, recipe for sexy cocktails ( for him to make me sexy cocktail,as he is a certified bartender), my favourite grill chicken recipe,Japanese food recipe and Muffins! =) Kind of a satisfaction for being able to explore the recipe in preparing my favourite food. whee!!!



After a must procrastinating, I have finally took up the effort of doing Hand Mask which I got it from The Face Shop since January2011 =) NO, it is not expired yet. =)

here you go...I would recommend to my friends for this hand mask cause it really make my hand smoother and just feel irresistable to touch it everyday. My colleague, Kuen will know as she is sitting next to me and I have been telling her everyday =)


Birthday month....a lot to buy but pocket is screaming a NO. My favourite perfume is almost finishing...wondering which is the best perfume to buy now,. I am inot something sweeter this time..is Marc Jacob's Daisy a good wan? I tried it at the airport that day and I really love the scent....hmmm....or I should still stick to Ralph Lauren Blue? or Lancome? I want all....can I? =)

updates...

Something has been inspiring me to hop in here to drop some updates since the last post.
I do not know why that I have the urge or inspiration that I should call it.
When I log on to this blog, and YES! I called that my inspiration to blog here today - Jenn's comment on 03May2011
Sounds like it was some time ago,but I call it my inspiration to blog today =) wee!

Rainy and breeze evening.

Blogging after updates on 22March2011

Plenty of occasions happened. This would be kind of a long post, just to be more detailed on what has been going on for 2011

Let's start from 27March2011 (Sunday)



OK. 27March2011 has been a meaningful day for me and his life.
It marks the beginning of our journey as life partner.
This is the day which we have decided to register each other as official Husband&Wife.
Our ROM was held at Mahavihara Temple,the registration department in Brickfields, KL.
It was a simple yet meaningful day for us.
ROM was held at 2pm on that day, and,yes, we were the 1st couple for the day to get started with registration for that day.
Registrar for that day was an experienced and fun man. well, I found out that he is a lefty too! =)

I love his quote to my man -

" Before marriage, your things are your things,and her things are her things; but after marriage,must remember, your things are all 50% belong to her"

"The most simple thing about marriage is to sign the ROM cert and that's it. The most tedious is to maintain the relationship"

......

There are a few more which we found they were meaningful too!

Present that day were his and my close relatives and friends.

My witness is of course my woman - Jenn!
Would like to still thank you for your time and effort. It is unforgettable.
and my dear cousin sister who did expensive make up for me. Really grateful for the Chanel Makeover~

A simple dinner was held at The MING Room ,Bangsar Shopping Centre. Food was not extensively expensive and nice, but it was truly from me and him to give a sincere treat to those who have witnessed our ROM.

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28April2011(Thurday ; Sunny morning / Cloudy Noon / Rainy Evening) - Photo Shooting



After a month time from our ROM, we were busy keeping ourselves looking good.
I was insanely on diet and he was busy giving training and to train himself, to look good for our photo shooting.
We have chosen LaSposa Bridal Shop located in PJ.

It was a whole day photo shooting including indoor and outdoor shooting.
FRIM is the place where we took down our most memorable outdoor shooting. Love those pics. - to be shared soon once I get my photos.

Thanks to my woman again - Jenn for being there for me although she was busy that day.

Glad that everything went on smoothly.

Thank god that the make up artist, the photographer and videographer were all co-operating well.

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09May2011 (Sunny day)

Apart from busy running Marathon2011, I am busy to get my career settled down in Kota Kinabalu. Yes, we are settling down KK,Sabah. Here comes all the question marks...It is not that he can't afford to pay for my life, but I really want to continue my career, for not wasting my parents effort and my time pursuing a degree and not making full use of it. and yes, I still need to pay for my PTPTN loan.I am not lucky to be one of those rich ass that do not need to bear any of that yet no appreciating it.
I took SC License Exam and apparently I failed. Embarrassing yet I am still eager to share it here. I knew it is coming even before I took the exam,reason being I did not study hard enough.

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11May2011 (gloomy day) - Trip down to KK,Sabah

We have decided to shift into our new house in KK on 12May2011.
Mum followed me this trip as she has not been to KK and was eager to have a look at our new house.Hence, she tagged me along and this is a trip for her b'day pressie from me and him. Mum was having enjoying and had fun. She is more comfortable knowing what kind of place would I be staying in coming days. Surprise that she was quite happy with the place, apart from a small distance of forest/hilly area that we have to pass through.

We finally made it there that our house was settled.

Thanks to my dearest mum and aunties' ang pows for our new house.

I am missing the lil' apartment now. It is a small and comfy apartment. You could feel the breeze by staying in this lil hut although weather is hot outside.

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Next to go are lots more interesting stuff to do.....well well.....

really looking forward -------

ahhh! Birthday month = shopping month! =)

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I do not know what to write but just want to post after sooo long....

really really glad that I actually got my own Farah Khan's gown~ phewitt!! thanks for my dear aunty's recommendations...

and and.....Stuart's Silver diamony heels~ yey~

I am still glad glad and glad!!! hehehe! it was like a dream to me that I am able to own these......thanks to Darling!!! =)))))

he did not sound discouraging this time but agree with my idea instead. Love you!

a month to go for photoshoot.....nervous stress excited


DIET!!!

Not RIGHT

I need a stranger to listen to me

i want to throw out my words to that stranger that I have not met before

EGO DIGNITY FACES

makes me refuse to share

rather share with stranger that know nothing about me

just to listen to me

just to give me positive advise

just to let me throw out my words

run run i want to run away

disconnect with the world

i hate it

i do not like it

i want to throw my words out to you stranger

can you hear me stranger?

i am suffering

04March2011

Plans...

Planss...

I have more and more to plan

Bought Signature Wedding mag tot it could help

Friday and I finally broke my detox of day 4

thank god that i made it through the first 3 days

Success!

I am gonna be on detox again next week~

=)

marathon2011@Maju Junction

~ There we go again~

next,
bridal shop;
ROM...

more to come...

Valentine's Day 2011

it is an eve of Valentine's day while I am blogging here

just got back from lunch and Karaoke session from Pavilion

there were heavy crowd in Pavillion

everyone is busy getting the bf and gf their favourite stuff and couples busy accompanying each other to buy the gf's favourite stuff. how lucky is the gf to have such wonderful bf.....i is not 1 or 2 couples that are buying pressie,but is most of them,and is mosst of the guy buying stuff for the gals....how sweet~~~ I was so envy and impressed how these bfs can be.... although cny is just overed,and now is shopping for Valentine's day.....SWEET~

after lunch n K session, we went to get Precilia a Polaroid camera~ I almost get 1 for myself as Valentine's gift,but haiz....I didnt get at last =((


emo can really cause everything tasteless and meaningless

I hate Valentine's day!!!! it has never been a special one to me...

2011@emo

i have a habit to blog when I am emo

i like to lock myself in the room n in the dark,to blog whenever i am emo

i refuse to smile to the world

i want to sleep

i want to sleep away all the nonsense

i sleep more when i am emo,but i cant sleep when i am being cheated

i cant take it when ppl lie to me but what is going on now

i am lost

i am scared

i want to run far far away

Tuesday 04012011

wanted to post some pictures from my camera...but I have decided to delay to tmr

procrastination kills

i have promised myself to stop thinking

phew~

its wednesday tmr

i love you

2011@Paranoid

2011. I have been thinking alot lately.

Is it because I am a year wiser or am I having pre-marriage syndrome? I guess it is more like a pre-marriage syndrome.

things happening around me is making me thinking even more and sometimes can even go crazy

marriage is forever,it is for the whole life. Marriage is about being loyal,faithful to your wife / husband.but how well are 2 individuals gonna work this out? this has been a real issue.
-bottom of my heart tells me that, he is the one and yes, we are gonna last forever.

am I gonna be an idiot yellow-faced housewife or m I gonna be a fashionable wife & Mum?
- I told myself I am gonna be a fashionable wife & mum whom is able to go into kitchen to prepare 3 meals a day for my husband. whether am I able to do this? I am really hoping that I will. and cross finger that he will not let me being an idiot yellow-faced housewife, and not loyal & being unfaithful.

am I gonna be able to cope with his family? will I get bullied like what happened to my friend's friend whom is being bullied by the mother-in-law?- as of now, I have no hesitation to say that his family love me more than I thought,especially his mom. but would this be another way around once I stepped into his door? phew~

above matters have been really concerning me...

financially. are we gonna be able to survive? I trust that he will.but what if something just happen between us, and who will be taking care of me for the rest of my life?

this is one of my concern too

friends told me to stop thinking about all these nonsense. I am trying to but somehow, that is the reality and the fact that we are gonna come across. that is why I am paranoid now. Pre-marriage syndrome though

30Dec2010

a 2nd last post for the year wouldn't be too much,would it?

everything is confirmed now and preparation is needed now.

i hope everything will go smoothly as it is

planning,surveying, and more and more planning....

yey~ looking forward to a brand new 2011!!!

mixed feelings

a lil bit of joy

a lil bit of lost

a lil bit of inferior

a lil bit of fear

a lil bit of pride

a lil bit mental disorder

LIFE

Merry X'mas 2010

sorry for the belated post. Merry X'mas 2010 to everyone.

it has been a memorable xmas to me and darling

although it was not a surprise and no special preparation / occasion, and I really wanna say, not even a bouquet of flower, and I said "I do" to him...thinking back,it sounds funny and a dumb of me to say "Yes"...but afterall, I guess he knew that I hate surprise (hope it is so), hence he did it this way...not much of a surprise that touched me but is his innitiative of making the effort to propose in a proper-er way..,i guess

ta-da!!! here it is...the blink blink ones~




our promises. he said he will not break his promises

Happy Winter Solstice

Happy Winter Solstice to everybody~

Having said that, we are all 1 year wiser...not older, NO! but wiser.... =)

To me, it marks a beginning of a new year... what I did was I wore a new top to work today

To me,eating an empty filling dumpling is just like being committed to an empty promise. Therefore, I never like/fancy empty filling dumplings. somehow, I still force myself to swallow 8 biji of dumplings. yea, I did not take up to 26biji. (as in chinese calender, I am 26 in yr 2011)

Looking back to 2009, it was dramatic and lotsa "wonderful" stuff happened that I do not even want to think back.

In 2010, everything is smooth, its just that its not up to par yet.

In 2011, I told myself, I must be there. and I hope you too.

crapz.....on top are just my sudden feeling at this lonely night...

good night

is the thought that counts

for whatever we do, and whatever we say, it is not as important as a true heart feeling

if you are not speaking and behaving as what you think, you are not consider as sincere

all in all, is the thought that counts.

a thoughtful person does not need to proof himself by words / action.

Escape

Escape

Confused

Lost

Hope

Pray

exhausted

Monday will always have a syndrome in the office - Monday Blue

exhausted and tired.

Confused

Lost

Life

how time flies...

Our daily busy errants get us involved and flooded till we don't even realize that we are actually aging...from day to day...

The moment I got to know my lil cousin got period, I was not shocked, but sad. Cause I am old and its time for this lil gal to face the cruel world, its time to learn the way to protect herself. She is always a lil gal to me and my lil sister whom I love, because I do not have a lil sister. I wish I really have a sister, at least someone whom I can chat with when I am down, as well as when I am in joy. No doubt a younger brother is not bad, but guy will never understand how a gal feels.

She is the lil gal I took care the day when she was born, singing lullabye to put her to sleep, telling story and reading story book to her, singing rythme to entertain her, is actually a grown up now.

Looking back at her, reminds me how was the first time I got period too. It was when I was in standard 6 that I got my period first. I still remember what mom told me..." You are a big girl now, must behave and know what to do. Must help up with housework (never fail to remind me to do housework.faint*). Don't behave 38 so much, will let ppl laugh at you. Must be matured already. Don't always fight with brother already" that's my mom....never fail to worry about me, till now. I guess everyone's mom does.

Lucky thing that my aunty get maid to clean up the house today and that I can be quite resting and relax during this cloudy Saturday...

My darling still continuing treasuring China and I guess he is really enjoying himself and I am glad that he did. and just so you know darling...I miss you very badly..I don't know if you do the same, but I do.... Can't wait to see you

-The Climb-

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

The truth hurt

At this very moment that you just have to let her know what you did

What did she do to deserve all such treatment from you?

She has been good to you and this is what you did to hurt her?

She has been honest, loyal and caring, and this is what she has to get in the end of the day?

Why did you even want to do such sinful stuff to ruin your almost wonderful life with her?

don't you know you are almost reaching the wonderful moment of your life with her?

does it worth all and in the end of the day, you are actually being sinful?

does the truth really that hurt?

do you know that she is hurt terribly and her whole body is shivering now?

the truth hurts. yes. it is.

but do you put her as your priority in life?

she has not been complaining, she has been learning to be tough to face the world, she has been independent w/out you being beside her most of the time, she has been committed to you, she has been putting you as first priority in her life, and this should be what she get in the end of the day?

do you know what am I saying? I am telling you on behalf of her that she is HURT

she is truly and deeply HURT

she told me that she hope it was a nightmare,but no! the next day she woke up,she still have to face the world and knowing that she still deeply love you! She is really lost! she deeply love him and deeply hurt by him at the same time. what should she do?

I really hope I could help her on this.

I am sure that she will definitely be fine. She will definitely win this war.

She even told me it was a war and she has been tough to take up this war.

haiz...Life's like that?