04March2011

Plans...

Planss...

I have more and more to plan

Bought Signature Wedding mag tot it could help

Friday and I finally broke my detox of day 4

thank god that i made it through the first 3 days

Success!

I am gonna be on detox again next week~

=)

marathon2011@Maju Junction

~ There we go again~

next,
bridal shop;
ROM...

more to come...

Valentine's Day 2011

it is an eve of Valentine's day while I am blogging here

just got back from lunch and Karaoke session from Pavilion

there were heavy crowd in Pavillion

everyone is busy getting the bf and gf their favourite stuff and couples busy accompanying each other to buy the gf's favourite stuff. how lucky is the gf to have such wonderful bf.....i is not 1 or 2 couples that are buying pressie,but is most of them,and is mosst of the guy buying stuff for the gals....how sweet~~~ I was so envy and impressed how these bfs can be.... although cny is just overed,and now is shopping for Valentine's day.....SWEET~

after lunch n K session, we went to get Precilia a Polaroid camera~ I almost get 1 for myself as Valentine's gift,but haiz....I didnt get at last =((


emo can really cause everything tasteless and meaningless

I hate Valentine's day!!!! it has never been a special one to me...

2011@emo

i have a habit to blog when I am emo

i like to lock myself in the room n in the dark,to blog whenever i am emo

i refuse to smile to the world

i want to sleep

i want to sleep away all the nonsense

i sleep more when i am emo,but i cant sleep when i am being cheated

i cant take it when ppl lie to me but what is going on now

i am lost

i am scared

i want to run far far away

Tuesday 04012011

wanted to post some pictures from my camera...but I have decided to delay to tmr

procrastination kills

i have promised myself to stop thinking

phew~

its wednesday tmr

i love you

2011@Paranoid

2011. I have been thinking alot lately.

Is it because I am a year wiser or am I having pre-marriage syndrome? I guess it is more like a pre-marriage syndrome.

things happening around me is making me thinking even more and sometimes can even go crazy

marriage is forever,it is for the whole life. Marriage is about being loyal,faithful to your wife / husband.but how well are 2 individuals gonna work this out? this has been a real issue.
-bottom of my heart tells me that, he is the one and yes, we are gonna last forever.

am I gonna be an idiot yellow-faced housewife or m I gonna be a fashionable wife & Mum?
- I told myself I am gonna be a fashionable wife & mum whom is able to go into kitchen to prepare 3 meals a day for my husband. whether am I able to do this? I am really hoping that I will. and cross finger that he will not let me being an idiot yellow-faced housewife, and not loyal & being unfaithful.

am I gonna be able to cope with his family? will I get bullied like what happened to my friend's friend whom is being bullied by the mother-in-law?- as of now, I have no hesitation to say that his family love me more than I thought,especially his mom. but would this be another way around once I stepped into his door? phew~

above matters have been really concerning me...

financially. are we gonna be able to survive? I trust that he will.but what if something just happen between us, and who will be taking care of me for the rest of my life?

this is one of my concern too

friends told me to stop thinking about all these nonsense. I am trying to but somehow, that is the reality and the fact that we are gonna come across. that is why I am paranoid now. Pre-marriage syndrome though

30Dec2010

a 2nd last post for the year wouldn't be too much,would it?

everything is confirmed now and preparation is needed now.

i hope everything will go smoothly as it is

planning,surveying, and more and more planning....

yey~ looking forward to a brand new 2011!!!

mixed feelings

a lil bit of joy

a lil bit of lost

a lil bit of inferior

a lil bit of fear

a lil bit of pride

a lil bit mental disorder

LIFE

Merry X'mas 2010

sorry for the belated post. Merry X'mas 2010 to everyone.

it has been a memorable xmas to me and darling

although it was not a surprise and no special preparation / occasion, and I really wanna say, not even a bouquet of flower, and I said "I do" to him...thinking back,it sounds funny and a dumb of me to say "Yes"...but afterall, I guess he knew that I hate surprise (hope it is so), hence he did it this way...not much of a surprise that touched me but is his innitiative of making the effort to propose in a proper-er way..,i guess

ta-da!!! here it is...the blink blink ones~




our promises. he said he will not break his promises

Happy Winter Solstice

Happy Winter Solstice to everybody~

Having said that, we are all 1 year wiser...not older, NO! but wiser.... =)

To me, it marks a beginning of a new year... what I did was I wore a new top to work today

To me,eating an empty filling dumpling is just like being committed to an empty promise. Therefore, I never like/fancy empty filling dumplings. somehow, I still force myself to swallow 8 biji of dumplings. yea, I did not take up to 26biji. (as in chinese calender, I am 26 in yr 2011)

Looking back to 2009, it was dramatic and lotsa "wonderful" stuff happened that I do not even want to think back.

In 2010, everything is smooth, its just that its not up to par yet.

In 2011, I told myself, I must be there. and I hope you too.

crapz.....on top are just my sudden feeling at this lonely night...

good night

is the thought that counts

for whatever we do, and whatever we say, it is not as important as a true heart feeling

if you are not speaking and behaving as what you think, you are not consider as sincere

all in all, is the thought that counts.

a thoughtful person does not need to proof himself by words / action.

Escape

Escape

Confused

Lost

Hope

Pray

exhausted

Monday will always have a syndrome in the office - Monday Blue

exhausted and tired.

Confused

Lost

Life

how time flies...

Our daily busy errants get us involved and flooded till we don't even realize that we are actually aging...from day to day...

The moment I got to know my lil cousin got period, I was not shocked, but sad. Cause I am old and its time for this lil gal to face the cruel world, its time to learn the way to protect herself. She is always a lil gal to me and my lil sister whom I love, because I do not have a lil sister. I wish I really have a sister, at least someone whom I can chat with when I am down, as well as when I am in joy. No doubt a younger brother is not bad, but guy will never understand how a gal feels.

She is the lil gal I took care the day when she was born, singing lullabye to put her to sleep, telling story and reading story book to her, singing rythme to entertain her, is actually a grown up now.

Looking back at her, reminds me how was the first time I got period too. It was when I was in standard 6 that I got my period first. I still remember what mom told me..." You are a big girl now, must behave and know what to do. Must help up with housework (never fail to remind me to do housework.faint*). Don't behave 38 so much, will let ppl laugh at you. Must be matured already. Don't always fight with brother already" that's my mom....never fail to worry about me, till now. I guess everyone's mom does.

Lucky thing that my aunty get maid to clean up the house today and that I can be quite resting and relax during this cloudy Saturday...

My darling still continuing treasuring China and I guess he is really enjoying himself and I am glad that he did. and just so you know darling...I miss you very badly..I don't know if you do the same, but I do.... Can't wait to see you

-The Climb-

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

The truth hurt

At this very moment that you just have to let her know what you did

What did she do to deserve all such treatment from you?

She has been good to you and this is what you did to hurt her?

She has been honest, loyal and caring, and this is what she has to get in the end of the day?

Why did you even want to do such sinful stuff to ruin your almost wonderful life with her?

don't you know you are almost reaching the wonderful moment of your life with her?

does it worth all and in the end of the day, you are actually being sinful?

does the truth really that hurt?

do you know that she is hurt terribly and her whole body is shivering now?

the truth hurts. yes. it is.

but do you put her as your priority in life?

she has not been complaining, she has been learning to be tough to face the world, she has been independent w/out you being beside her most of the time, she has been committed to you, she has been putting you as first priority in her life, and this should be what she get in the end of the day?

do you know what am I saying? I am telling you on behalf of her that she is HURT

she is truly and deeply HURT

she told me that she hope it was a nightmare,but no! the next day she woke up,she still have to face the world and knowing that she still deeply love you! She is really lost! she deeply love him and deeply hurt by him at the same time. what should she do?

I really hope I could help her on this.

I am sure that she will definitely be fine. She will definitely win this war.

She even told me it was a war and she has been tough to take up this war.

haiz...Life's like that?

after so long...

if i am not mistaken, the last time I blogged in here was during July,when my dearly myvi was still in the workshop..
today, 25th Sept, the dearly Myvi suppose to be all ready to let me ride everywhere,but it seems sick again this morning....thanks god I learnt to check my car after the accident =)

staying at home made me rewind back to my last awesome weekend~

I miss the awesome small place now...

how I wish I could be thr again...company should have more DOA plan~ lol

anyway, 1st time being treated as VIP in another place is not a bad experience. VIP stays and VIP treatment was all so good~

the food,the hot sun,the place and the wheather made ppl sick but it was still all so awesome

the irresistable hawker food made my face full with all the huge acnes now ...sadnye~

all in all, it was a great and awesome weekend away although we have to work during the weekedays~ =)

A lil bit of everything

getting more and more tired of working life

people..work..money~ sigh..

wats life or?

main power in office shut down and gotta work in hot and dark for the half an hour.-not too bad-
atleast better than my poor team members who have to survive till 7pm

hmm...browsing through forum which I have been looking for

add a lil bit of everything to me







*with you, I see my life* I miss you -.-

Days without braces-mare

Eversince I took out my braces, I have the urge of taking photos everyday before I go to work ( to compare my make up skill from time to time)

Friday:

Thursday

Wednesday

Tuesday

Monday

Conclusion: No difference right?haha! I shall improve my makeup skill. but how? =///

Back to life

After hopping through some blogs and get back to my own blog, I feel so left out and ugly and embarrassing for my own blog.

Hence, I have decided to do a quick summary for the past few months for what I have been through....Just a small tiny pictures for what I have been up to for the past few months.

Life with family,with my darling, as well as with my friends of my life are being summarized as small pixies below.

~my demanding family and darling

Its Sunday and tomorrow is gonna be a beginning of new week - MONDAY-

Hopefully tomorrow's morning gym would really help to get rid partial of my excess fats~

p/s: I miss you