a lil bit of joy
a lil bit of lost
a lil bit of inferior
a lil bit of fear
a lil bit of pride
a lil bit mental disorder
LIFE
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Merry X'mas 2010
sorry for the belated post. Merry X'mas 2010 to everyone.
it has been a memorable xmas to me and darling
although it was not a surprise and no special preparation / occasion, and I really wanna say, not even a bouquet of flower, and I said "I do" to him...thinking back,it sounds funny and a dumb of me to say "Yes"...but afterall, I guess he knew that I hate surprise (hope it is so), hence he did it this way...not much of a surprise that touched me but is his innitiative of making the effort to propose in a proper-er way..,i guess
ta-da!!! here it is...the blink blink ones~
our promises. he said he will not break his promises
it has been a memorable xmas to me and darling
although it was not a surprise and no special preparation / occasion, and I really wanna say, not even a bouquet of flower, and I said "I do" to him...thinking back,it sounds funny and a dumb of me to say "Yes"...but afterall, I guess he knew that I hate surprise (hope it is so), hence he did it this way...not much of a surprise that touched me but is his innitiative of making the effort to propose in a proper-er way..,i guess
ta-da!!! here it is...the blink blink ones~
our promises. he said he will not break his promises
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Happy Winter Solstice
Happy Winter Solstice to everybody~
Having said that, we are all 1 year wiser...not older, NO! but wiser.... =)
To me, it marks a beginning of a new year... what I did was I wore a new top to work today
To me,eating an empty filling dumpling is just like being committed to an empty promise. Therefore, I never like/fancy empty filling dumplings. somehow, I still force myself to swallow 8 biji of dumplings. yea, I did not take up to 26biji. (as in chinese calender, I am 26 in yr 2011)
Looking back to 2009, it was dramatic and lotsa "wonderful" stuff happened that I do not even want to think back.
In 2010, everything is smooth, its just that its not up to par yet.
In 2011, I told myself, I must be there. and I hope you too.
crapz.....on top are just my sudden feeling at this lonely night...
good night
Having said that, we are all 1 year wiser...not older, NO! but wiser.... =)
To me, it marks a beginning of a new year... what I did was I wore a new top to work today
To me,eating an empty filling dumpling is just like being committed to an empty promise. Therefore, I never like/fancy empty filling dumplings. somehow, I still force myself to swallow 8 biji of dumplings. yea, I did not take up to 26biji. (as in chinese calender, I am 26 in yr 2011)
Looking back to 2009, it was dramatic and lotsa "wonderful" stuff happened that I do not even want to think back.
In 2010, everything is smooth, its just that its not up to par yet.
In 2011, I told myself, I must be there. and I hope you too.
crapz.....on top are just my sudden feeling at this lonely night...
good night
Thursday, December 16, 2010
is the thought that counts
for whatever we do, and whatever we say, it is not as important as a true heart feeling
if you are not speaking and behaving as what you think, you are not consider as sincere
all in all, is the thought that counts.
a thoughtful person does not need to proof himself by words / action.
if you are not speaking and behaving as what you think, you are not consider as sincere
all in all, is the thought that counts.
a thoughtful person does not need to proof himself by words / action.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
exhausted
Monday will always have a syndrome in the office - Monday Blue
exhausted and tired.
Confused
Lost
Life
exhausted and tired.
Confused
Lost
Life
Saturday, December 11, 2010
how time flies...
Our daily busy errants get us involved and flooded till we don't even realize that we are actually aging...from day to day...
The moment I got to know my lil cousin got period, I was not shocked, but sad. Cause I am old and its time for this lil gal to face the cruel world, its time to learn the way to protect herself. She is always a lil gal to me and my lil sister whom I love, because I do not have a lil sister. I wish I really have a sister, at least someone whom I can chat with when I am down, as well as when I am in joy. No doubt a younger brother is not bad, but guy will never understand how a gal feels.
She is the lil gal I took care the day when she was born, singing lullabye to put her to sleep, telling story and reading story book to her, singing rythme to entertain her, is actually a grown up now.
Looking back at her, reminds me how was the first time I got period too. It was when I was in standard 6 that I got my period first. I still remember what mom told me..." You are a big girl now, must behave and know what to do. Must help up with housework (never fail to remind me to do housework.faint*). Don't behave 38 so much, will let ppl laugh at you. Must be matured already. Don't always fight with brother already" that's my mom....never fail to worry about me, till now. I guess everyone's mom does.
Lucky thing that my aunty get maid to clean up the house today and that I can be quite resting and relax during this cloudy Saturday...
My darling still continuing treasuring China and I guess he is really enjoying himself and I am glad that he did. and just so you know darling...I miss you very badly..I don't know if you do the same, but I do.... Can't wait to see you
The moment I got to know my lil cousin got period, I was not shocked, but sad. Cause I am old and its time for this lil gal to face the cruel world, its time to learn the way to protect herself. She is always a lil gal to me and my lil sister whom I love, because I do not have a lil sister. I wish I really have a sister, at least someone whom I can chat with when I am down, as well as when I am in joy. No doubt a younger brother is not bad, but guy will never understand how a gal feels.
She is the lil gal I took care the day when she was born, singing lullabye to put her to sleep, telling story and reading story book to her, singing rythme to entertain her, is actually a grown up now.
Looking back at her, reminds me how was the first time I got period too. It was when I was in standard 6 that I got my period first. I still remember what mom told me..." You are a big girl now, must behave and know what to do. Must help up with housework (never fail to remind me to do housework.faint*). Don't behave 38 so much, will let ppl laugh at you. Must be matured already. Don't always fight with brother already" that's my mom....never fail to worry about me, till now. I guess everyone's mom does.
Lucky thing that my aunty get maid to clean up the house today and that I can be quite resting and relax during this cloudy Saturday...
My darling still continuing treasuring China and I guess he is really enjoying himself and I am glad that he did. and just so you know darling...I miss you very badly..I don't know if you do the same, but I do.... Can't wait to see you
-The Climb-
I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
The truth hurt
At this very moment that you just have to let her know what you did
What did she do to deserve all such treatment from you?
She has been good to you and this is what you did to hurt her?
She has been honest, loyal and caring, and this is what she has to get in the end of the day?
Why did you even want to do such sinful stuff to ruin your almost wonderful life with her?
don't you know you are almost reaching the wonderful moment of your life with her?
does it worth all and in the end of the day, you are actually being sinful?
does the truth really that hurt?
do you know that she is hurt terribly and her whole body is shivering now?
the truth hurts. yes. it is.
but do you put her as your priority in life?
she has not been complaining, she has been learning to be tough to face the world, she has been independent w/out you being beside her most of the time, she has been committed to you, she has been putting you as first priority in her life, and this should be what she get in the end of the day?
do you know what am I saying? I am telling you on behalf of her that she is HURT
she is truly and deeply HURT
she told me that she hope it was a nightmare,but no! the next day she woke up,she still have to face the world and knowing that she still deeply love you! She is really lost! she deeply love him and deeply hurt by him at the same time. what should she do?
I really hope I could help her on this.
I am sure that she will definitely be fine. She will definitely win this war.
She even told me it was a war and she has been tough to take up this war.
haiz...Life's like that?
What did she do to deserve all such treatment from you?
She has been good to you and this is what you did to hurt her?
She has been honest, loyal and caring, and this is what she has to get in the end of the day?
Why did you even want to do such sinful stuff to ruin your almost wonderful life with her?
don't you know you are almost reaching the wonderful moment of your life with her?
does it worth all and in the end of the day, you are actually being sinful?
does the truth really that hurt?
do you know that she is hurt terribly and her whole body is shivering now?
the truth hurts. yes. it is.
but do you put her as your priority in life?
she has not been complaining, she has been learning to be tough to face the world, she has been independent w/out you being beside her most of the time, she has been committed to you, she has been putting you as first priority in her life, and this should be what she get in the end of the day?
do you know what am I saying? I am telling you on behalf of her that she is HURT
she is truly and deeply HURT
she told me that she hope it was a nightmare,but no! the next day she woke up,she still have to face the world and knowing that she still deeply love you! She is really lost! she deeply love him and deeply hurt by him at the same time. what should she do?
I really hope I could help her on this.
I am sure that she will definitely be fine. She will definitely win this war.
She even told me it was a war and she has been tough to take up this war.
haiz...Life's like that?
Saturday, September 25, 2010
after so long...
if i am not mistaken, the last time I blogged in here was during July,when my dearly myvi was still in the workshop..
today, 25th Sept, the dearly Myvi suppose to be all ready to let me ride everywhere,but it seems sick again this morning....thanks god I learnt to check my car after the accident =)
staying at home made me rewind back to my last awesome weekend~
I miss the awesome small place now...
how I wish I could be thr again...company should have more DOA plan~ lol
anyway, 1st time being treated as VIP in another place is not a bad experience. VIP stays and VIP treatment was all so good~
the food,the hot sun,the place and the wheather made ppl sick but it was still all so awesome
the irresistable hawker food made my face full with all the huge acnes now ...sadnye~
all in all, it was a great and awesome weekend away although we have to work during the weekedays~ =)
today, 25th Sept, the dearly Myvi suppose to be all ready to let me ride everywhere,but it seems sick again this morning....thanks god I learnt to check my car after the accident =)
staying at home made me rewind back to my last awesome weekend~
I miss the awesome small place now...
how I wish I could be thr again...company should have more DOA plan~ lol
anyway, 1st time being treated as VIP in another place is not a bad experience. VIP stays and VIP treatment was all so good~
the food,the hot sun,the place and the wheather made ppl sick but it was still all so awesome
the irresistable hawker food made my face full with all the huge acnes now ...sadnye~
all in all, it was a great and awesome weekend away although we have to work during the weekedays~ =)
Thursday, August 12, 2010
A lil bit of everything
getting more and more tired of working life
people..work..money~ sigh..
wats life or?
main power in office shut down and gotta work in hot and dark for the half an hour.-not too bad-
atleast better than my poor team members who have to survive till 7pm
hmm...browsing through forum which I have been looking for
add a lil bit of everything to me
*with you, I see my life* I miss you -.-
people..work..money~ sigh..
wats life or?
main power in office shut down and gotta work in hot and dark for the half an hour.-not too bad-
atleast better than my poor team members who have to survive till 7pm
hmm...browsing through forum which I have been looking for
add a lil bit of everything to me
*with you, I see my life* I miss you -.-
Sunday, July 04, 2010
Days without braces-mare
Eversince I took out my braces, I have the urge of taking photos everyday before I go to work ( to compare my make up skill from time to time)
Friday:
Thursday
Wednesday
Tuesday
Monday
Conclusion: No difference right?haha! I shall improve my makeup skill. but how? =///
Saturday, July 03, 2010
Back to life
After hopping through some blogs and get back to my own blog, I feel so left out and ugly and embarrassing for my own blog.
Hence, I have decided to do a quick summary for the past few months for what I have been through....Just a small tiny pictures for what I have been up to for the past few months.
Life with family,with my darling, as well as with my friends of my life are being summarized as small pixies below.
~my demanding family and darling
Its Sunday and tomorrow is gonna be a beginning of new week - MONDAY-
Hopefully tomorrow's morning gym would really help to get rid partial of my excess fats~
p/s: I miss you
Saturday, January 02, 2010
2nd Jan 2010
George and the Dragon has alwiz enlighten my weekend
thanks to my dearest and happening and never-wanna-be-lonely aunties who waited for me for the lovely brunch
weekend starts greatly till phone calls telling dad met with an accident and got 7 stitches on his forehead
=((((((((((((((((
I never want phone calls plus bad news...
I never want it
phobia increased
God, please let my papa recover soon! he had enough of it already
Papa, get well soon !!!! I miss you!!!!
Friday, January 01, 2010
new year eve 09' - new yr 10'
Time flies and it is 1st Jan 2010
What have been people up to?
What have I done for 2009?
It feels like 09' is not done yet!
i Still have my diet plan which has not ended yet,
my insufficient credit for too many things that I am going after,
and the list goes on~
a catch up and a chilling drink with bro is always the best for a bored new year eve
New year is nothing but an eating day
have been craving for jap buffet and my dream came ture
regret tho
no idea how long more it takes for me to get rid of those excess fats! daime!
New year,new mood,new resolution.
DIET! babbeh DIET!!!
Happy New year once again!!!
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Issues
Sometimes
I Feel like I’m going out of
My mind,
Boy the way you do me is a
damn crime,
But then you smile at me
and its all right,
With you there aint nothin' in between,
Every time that I walk out the door,
Tell myself I can't take it no more,
There’s a part of me won't let you go
Keep saying yes when my minds saying no,
Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.
Its so wrong, boy you leave me hangin' for so long,
You empty out my love until its all gone,
You change the words but still it's the same song,
I’m tired of the melody.
Change my number and throw out your clothes,
But my feelings for you, it still shows,
I keep building the walls round my heart,
But then I see you, and it all falls apart...
Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.
Why fight it, cant hide it
Truth is I think I like it,
Confusion, illusions
Still I don’t know which way to go….
Chorus: (x2)
Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues.
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues,
We got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues
Me and my heart we got issues
Don’t know whether I should hate you or miss you.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
SINGLE
Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you
I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
I don't need to be anyone's baby
Is that so hard to understand?
No I don't need another half to make me whole
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant
I'm single
Right now
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
Right now
That's how I wanna be
Ah yeah uh huh that's right
Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
I like who I am
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cause you say I should
Can't romance on demand
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood
Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Till then I'm single
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant
All you single people out there
This is for you
I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
I don't need to be anyone's baby
Is that so hard to understand?
No I don't need another half to make me whole
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant
I'm single
Right now
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
Right now
That's how I wanna be
Ah yeah uh huh that's right
Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
I like who I am
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cause you say I should
Can't romance on demand
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood
Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Till then I'm single
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant
p/s: this is for you you you.....and you know who you are if you are reading my complicated blog =p
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Hello November!
looking back to october, i missed lotsa fun
i've missed hanging out with great ppl like what i did during Uni
i've missed my freedom eversince m in kl
i've not been me for last 3 months
November - told myself to be myself
to be the REAL Shin
to grab back my youth and my fun time!!!!!
i fuccking need my hang out time!
i fucking need my gym
looking forward for a better month
a freedom~ month
a stressless month
a cheerful month
Hello November!
See you soon December~
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