The UNlucky me

It has been around 1week since I last updated my blog. And life has been bad... Everything seems so unfair… is life really unfair? Or is it some revenge towards me, as I did something wrong in the pass? Arghh…..its just so exhausting. Everything seems so bad happened towards me. Why is it so unfair? sigh….

I have lost another uncle out of sudden and for no reason. It’s such a mistery…such a confusion… Even the so called Heart Specialist from Mahkota Medical Centre didn’t know what happened. Such an irresponsible doctor and such a dumbass!!! How I wish my uncle could be awake at this time and tell us what is going on…. How I wish he could be alive…. How I wish… But I know that’s impossible, and everyone’s life still has to goes on. After been through all these incident, I’ve learn to appreciate, to take care of people surrounding me( especially my family & BFF)… sending regards every now and then. Cause we will never know how long more we are gonna be alive… how long more can we still spending our time together…we might leave this world tomorrow. who knows right? But for those who only know making used of people (and you know who you are), I guess, its time for you to be awake now. And yeah, if you were to be my GODsis or GODbrother, please think twice before you promise me to do so. Don’t just make used of the “GOD” word… and only come to me when you are in trouble, but forget about me when you are enjoying your life. Please bear in mind that GOD is not for you to misused. God is always fair! (Thank god I have a godsis, Jenn, who’s always there for me and always got mad because of me. Sorry Jenn…)

Hmm… the feeling of trauma keep me thinking about some shitty stuff again…again and again…I don’t know why :( How I wish I could get some pills which can washed of all my memories and begin a new life... I wish I could turn back the time… being a naïve kid, live a happy life, live in the world of Snow White and Cinderella story where the good person will be rewarded and those bad fellows will get back their revenge, and the story is always with happy ending. That’s what should be happened in our life… but that’s what impossible will happen. :( sigh…….