2011@emo

i have a habit to blog when I am emo

i like to lock myself in the room n in the dark,to blog whenever i am emo

i refuse to smile to the world

i want to sleep

i want to sleep away all the nonsense

i sleep more when i am emo,but i cant sleep when i am being cheated

i cant take it when ppl lie to me but what is going on now

i am lost

i am scared

i want to run far far away

Tuesday 04012011

wanted to post some pictures from my camera...but I have decided to delay to tmr

procrastination kills

i have promised myself to stop thinking

phew~

its wednesday tmr

i love you

2011@Paranoid

2011. I have been thinking alot lately.

Is it because I am a year wiser or am I having pre-marriage syndrome? I guess it is more like a pre-marriage syndrome.

things happening around me is making me thinking even more and sometimes can even go crazy

marriage is forever,it is for the whole life. Marriage is about being loyal,faithful to your wife / husband.but how well are 2 individuals gonna work this out? this has been a real issue.
-bottom of my heart tells me that, he is the one and yes, we are gonna last forever.

am I gonna be an idiot yellow-faced housewife or m I gonna be a fashionable wife & Mum?
- I told myself I am gonna be a fashionable wife & mum whom is able to go into kitchen to prepare 3 meals a day for my husband. whether am I able to do this? I am really hoping that I will. and cross finger that he will not let me being an idiot yellow-faced housewife, and not loyal & being unfaithful.

am I gonna be able to cope with his family? will I get bullied like what happened to my friend's friend whom is being bullied by the mother-in-law?- as of now, I have no hesitation to say that his family love me more than I thought,especially his mom. but would this be another way around once I stepped into his door? phew~

above matters have been really concerning me...

financially. are we gonna be able to survive? I trust that he will.but what if something just happen between us, and who will be taking care of me for the rest of my life?

this is one of my concern too

friends told me to stop thinking about all these nonsense. I am trying to but somehow, that is the reality and the fact that we are gonna come across. that is why I am paranoid now. Pre-marriage syndrome though